hey there..
my last post wasnt really that pleasant..

but this weeks have been better..
lesser crying..
more happier..
because been going out with baby..
i mean faliq..
actually i dont know lah..

whatever it is..
im just happy when im around him
or smsing him
or hugging him
or just in his presense..

well been watchin movies with him..
a lot..

now he owes me a star trek and night in a museum 2 date hee

and he's joining darlings outing tmr for sakura intl buffet at admiralty park..
after we going for pool! wee


well as for school..
we've been having a lot of projects
and presentations..
year 3 is indeed stress..
in one week we can have several presentations for diff modules.. HAIZ..

anyway i am really hoping that i can get to go overseas attchmt..
insyaallah..

update yall soon
CIAO chinchow

fuck. fuck. fuck.

im a BITCH.
im a lover.
im a child.
im a mother??
im a SINNER
and a saint (NOT)

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

i wana cry my eyes out till i go blind so nobody would want me, nobody would like me, nobody would love me ANYMORE.

i would love to kill myself but i cnt.
cz i dont wana sin further.

I WANA BACK OUT FROM SING OUT 09.
I WANA BACK OUT FROM SINGAPORE IDOL.
I WANA BLOODY FUCK OFF.


ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YAWR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


i wana emo and wana get out of ur life and just make myself suffer..
but i dont wana get out of ur life bcz i still love u and i want u back and i want u.
but no.
you dont want me anymore.........








ahhhhhhh............


can i just cry in the cinema tmr ?
i mite just do that.

your fingertips across my skin
the palmtrees swaying in the wind..
images.

you sang me spanish lullabyes
the sweetest sadness in your eyes
clever trick.

i never wana see you unhappy
i thought you'd want the same for me.

Goodbye my almost lover
goodbye my hopeless dream
im trying not to think about you
can't you just let me be
so long my luckless romance
my back is turned on you
shouldn't known you bring me heartache
almost lovers
always do

we walked along a crowded street
you took my hand and danced with me
images.
and when you left you kissed my lips
you told me you'd never never forget these images
no..

i never wana see you unhappy
i thought you'd want the same for me..

goodbye my almost lover
goodbye my hopeless dream
im trying not to think about u
can't you just let me be
so long my luckless romance
my back is turned on you
shudn't known you bring me heartache
almost lovers always do..

i cannot go to the ocean
i cannot drive the streets at night
i cannot wake up in the morning
without you on my mind
so you're gone and im haunted
and i bet you are just fine

did i make it that easy to walk right in and out
of my life...

oh ya!
tanx azmi for the reminder..
loads of things happened i missed out this..

well i was involved in an international production..
48hr film competition..
its interesting indeed..
azmi told me to be an actress on standby..
and yea i kinda forgot about it..
luckily he called me to remind me..
i was a metalcore screamo fan
(it was later changed to the johnny axel club president)
who will cry because my idol (johnny axel)
died in a freak accident.. so yea im suppose to cry..
and cry i did..
it was fun with the filming and with the crew
and of course the pizza! hee
i liked my freaky make up hurhur!
credits to izzy :)

if you wana see the film
(btw this film got top 8 WOOHOO)
you can come for the screening at
....
u noe wat...
u tell me u wana go see THEN i tell u where it is HAHA


anyway ysterday was the revival round (wildcard round)
for Sing Out 09.
i was suey to be the last contestant..
the only malay contestant
and the only one from adult category to sing an ENGLISH song..

I GOT THRU TO THE SEMI'S!!!!!!

yay!
anyway there's this showcase of semifinalist on 7th june at tampines mall..
and there are 2 semifinals..
on 27th n 28th..
faliq and mine are on 28th..
so come down and support us yea..
we NEED ur votes online and we NEED your support on the semis itself..

btw today was the photoshoot where we're required to wear red..
afterwhich me n faliq went to eat double cheeseburgers at mac!
hee
we had a fun n awesome time didnt we baby :)

alrite.. thats it..
need my beauty rest..
supporting faliq for show quest later at clarke quay..
need to wake up early!

ok lah nt really hee

CIAO CHINCHOW!

hey people!

sory for totally not updating my dusty blog after so long..
definitely A LOT of things happen thruout this "HIBERNATION"
period.

lets see...
argued with bf..
fixed things with bf..
me n bf HAPPY!
went to sch like normal..
suppose to play pool with a few of the titans..
but only a few came down..
it was also ain's bdae! happy belated bdae!



club crawl happened.
only got to dance reggae main and mass dance..
1st day was fine..
2nd day screwed up the choreo..
but my make up! WOH!
thats what i call my show-make up hehe

glad titans came to support..

supported hanaffe and the percussion ensemble..

its hilarious that one can HEADBANG with a cowbell!

HAHA!

and not to forget..
BABY came down!



had my SingOut Quarterfinals..
find that this competion is 98% chinese!
either in songs or the race itself...
i didnt get thru to the semi's or the revival wildcard round..
:'(
and nobody came to support me except baby..
and iffah's family who came after my performance.

but gt a call from them a few days later saying that the judges thought thru the results and looked thru the video and decided to bring me in for revival round..
weee!
will be singing foolish games by jewel.

well fancrew and flairnation and a few sfbians will be doing a combined performance for esplanade in sept so we have weekly practices on saturdays..
been fun but yet tough training as well..

had my 13th mthsary recently.. spent it with baby supporting him at his Show Quest quarterfinals and ate at breeks after that..

mum hasnt been well recently..
doctor says she has slip-disc..
she thinks otherwise..
so she's in bed or on the sofa the whole day thruout the whole few weeks..
and she's always relying on my laptop for british dramas to plug into the tv..
haha

well tests and quizes and ICA's are coming soon..
should study..
should drag yani and hanaffe to study..
must force ESPECIALLY yani to study..
JENG

went for FB passing down ceremony..
started at 7.30 but took soooooo long
because most of the previous batches presidents were there as well to make speeches haha
the very FIRST president of FB came down..WOW..
Gin Oschool as well..
after hearing about how FB was in the past im rather thankful that im in my batch eventhou nw we're called grandseniors.. OMG!
so OLD!
auditions for FB are over..
rumors are goin arnd that there's a 3rd audition..
and there's rumors that its being cancelled..
im nt really sure..
but wat i noe is i cnt wait to meet the juniors coming in :)

well im actually bored here at home.. tmr sch starts as early as 8.30 and i know for SURE that i cant be there on time..
after sch meeting the lepak bros and go to seoul garden for our outing..
yay! i get to stuff myself! JENG!

OK! im done updating!
im done!
and im gona play games till im sleepy!
GD NITEZ!

Syakira
4th Aug 1989
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